What Am I Supposed To Do With My Life?

Lynne's Art and Soul / February 16, 2014

I’ve been generally procrastinating today (as usual) rather than looking for a new job or getting on with my writing course or actually writing a book and I’ve been feeling generally miserable and stuck so I Googled “What am I supposed to do with my life?” and found a website called Tiny Buddha. That one caught my eye because it had an article called “6 Powerful Questions That Will Change Your Life Forever.” You can read that article if you click on the picture below.

To be honest, I’ve already asked myself most of those questions. I’ve studied myself, analysed myself and worked on my energy, thoughts and beliefs for several years now but it hasn’t made any difference and I’m still feeling stuck. I thought I wanted to be an artist but I don’t seem to be able to get anywhere with it so I think that will have to remain a hobby, at least for now. What I have realised is that I love writing my blog. I know there are ways to make a living out of blogging, either getting paid to write other people’s blogs or writing about subjects that help people such as weight loss or eating healthily and selling ebooks about them, but I just love writing about whatever interests me at that moment, I don’t want to be tied down to a particular subject. I guess in that respect I’m like Stephen Spielberg as he makes films he would want to watch but nobody is paying me (yet lol).

I have some ideas for children’s books that I may eventually get around to writing (yes, I know I should just get on and do it but I’m too busy expending energy fretting about the stress I’m getting at work and desperately trying to relax). I am also going to do a meditation for myself to find my Twin Flame. I’ve done meditation CDs before, when I was running my physical mediumship circle, and my friends in that circle said I have a really good voice. Obviously, I use my “telephone” voice when recording meditations rather than my normal voice which is probably why my friends sounded so surprised when they heard it lol! I’ve studied hypnosis and I’ve used brainwave entrainment audios before (though I don’t think I’ll use BWE for this recording) so, with a little bit of experimentation, I could come up with something that might actually work instead of using other people’s recordings that don’t seem to have any effect on me. If it does work for me it will be a miracle as I avoid relationships like the plague so that would be likely to work for other people too and it might be the way I will make my millions lol. Maybe part of my problem is that I have too many possibilities so I’m not sure where to focus my energy for the best.

The Daily Prompt today is Money for Nothing. “If you’re like most of us, you need to earn money by working for a living. Describe your ultimate job. If you’re in your dream job, tell us all about it — what is it that you love? What fulfills you? If you’re not in your dream job, describe for us what your ultimate job would be.”

So, that ties in very nicely with what I have written about today anyway. I have asked my guides (several times) to get me out of this unbearable work situation and show me what I should be doing. I know you are supposed to do what you love and what I love is art, writing and animals, particularly my cats. I love doing anything creative and I’ve made jewellery, dresses, models, costumes and cards. I also love jiving though there isn’t anywhere local that does it so I haven’t been dancing for many years. Working in accounts is really NOT what I should be doing and the thought of ending up in another stifling job fills me with dread but I still don’t make headway in trying to do something more creative. I am very reluctant to run my own business as I need a steady income I can rely on so I stay in a paid position even though I know it is possible for any of us to lose our jobs in this economic climate and it would actually make more sense to get on and create things I could sell while I’m still employed by someone else. My dream job would be getting paid for writing my blog and children’s books, creating my art and maybe making (sparkly!) things, all of which I can do from home while being with my cats. Just reading that last sentence makes me smile and feel relaxed. There’s a big sign if ever I saw one!

Going back to the Tiny Buddha site, there are 2 things that interest me. The first one is, if you look at the page about the 6 questions, you will see in the comments section underneath that there are MANY people who are in a similar situation to me. They hate their jobs and they want to do something else but they don’t know what. The second interesting thing is that the site is called Tiny BUDDHA as my master guide is Chinese and has been described to me by a fellow student medium during a workshop as a laughing buddha (funny, he doesn’t look like he is laughing when I see him though he did tease me about eating a whole packet of Jaffa Cakes once). I do have issues with my master guide at times because he always seems to be around when I’m going through tough times and it feels like he is teaching me harsh lessons so I tend to rely on my guide Ben instead. However, I had asked all of my guides and angels to help me with this quest to find what I should be doing as I feel completely lost and alone. Maybe my master guide is stepping up to the plate on this one. It is certainly odd that the Daily Prompt fitted in so perfectly with what I was going to write about today anyway. Perhaps I should have another go at those questions. 😉

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ranu802 says:

February 16, 2014 at 12:21 am

I loved reading your post. You have so many options which might be the reason you cannot decide which one to choose. Writing children’s books can be a fun thing to do. I always focused on being a teacher, I studied whatever was necessary to become one. I enjoyed teaching,I opted to teach elementary grade children,which is what I did and had a great time.
Thank you for sharing your post and also for stopping by.

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- Lynne's Art and Soul says:
  
  February 16, 2014 at 1:56 am
  
  I think you’re right Ranu – too much choice! I’ve never been good at making decisions. I’m thrilled that you loved reading my post. As you already have experience of working with children, have you ever thought about writing children’s books? You’ve got a great blog. You should be proud of yourself. 🙂 Thank you for your supportive comments.
  
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K.Chau says:

February 16, 2014 at 12:25 am

I think you should write your children’s books. Yes, an income is a requirement to live, but sometimes you’ve just got to do something unexpected. I’d like to direct you to this post http://www.thestlouisegotist.com/editorial/2014/january/21/what-i-learned-2013-15-wesley-hoffman

He was fired and a year later he is at a place more than satisfactory.

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- Lynne's Art and Soul says:
  
  February 16, 2014 at 2:21 am
  
  Thank you Kevin, I think you could be right. That is an interesting post, thank you for sharing it. btw, I think cookies are welcome in every city. 🙂
  
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Martha Kennedy says:

February 16, 2014 at 1:30 am

I think one major problem is that people expect their jobs to be their lives rather than seeing that the job is just a way to earn a living, and that joy, peace, satisfaction and personal fulfillment might come from activities outside the job (volunteering for something you care about, writing the book because you have a spare weekend, or could get up earlier, etc.). I have written good novels while, at the same time, working the equivalent of two full time jobs. There is only one way to do the things we want to do. We must simply do them.

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- Lynne's Art and Soul says:
  
  February 16, 2014 at 2:43 am
  
  Hi Martha, thank you for your comments. I agree that joy, peace, satisfaction and personal fulfillment might come from activities outside the job. I also think that people spend the majority of their time at work (if they work full-time) and so they should enjoy what they do, not feel stressed, anxious, be physically sick before they go to work or suffer panic attacks just at the thought of going to work. You must be Superwoman managing to write novels while working the equivalent of two full-time jobs! I’m struggling with just one job. You are right when you say we must simply do the things we want to do. In my case there is obviously something that is stopping me – some fear or other limiting belief that I haven’t managed to overcome yet. You’ve done well to get your novels written. Good luck with them. Did you do the illuminations for your them too? A woman of many talents. 🙂
  
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  - Martha Kennedy says:
    
    February 16, 2014 at 2:54 am
    
    I did. Those small drawings on the Martin of Gfenn blog are my work. The others came from the Codex Manesse. I just reached a point where the story I had to tell was larger than any other thing that might have been there. I do not know about you, but for many people the biggest fear is that maybe, after all, they have nothing to say, nothing to write. Paradoxically the only way that can be true is if the person never tries. People also worry they are no good. We’re all no good. But until we get our work out there in front of us, we can’t evaluate it or improve it.
    
    Definitely, if a person is physically ill at the thought of going to work, they need a different job. But an ordinary ho-hum pay the bill job that isn’t traumatizing can be very nice thing without being ones reason for being. I’ve been lucky to have been found by a job I love and in the moments when I wonder if I made the wrong choice and should have become a “writer” I instantly think, “No. I wouldn’t have missed a moment of my teaching career.” That worked out well for me and I truly know how lucky I’ve been. I hope you find your way through the labyrinth! 🙂
    
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    - Lynne's Art and Soul says:
      
      February 16, 2014 at 3:33 am
      
      Your drawings are really good. I think my problem is the fear of failure coupled with the fear of success! Yes, I think everyone worries that they are no good. There are many successful people who think they do not have talent and feel they are frauds.
      
      I would be very happy to have an ordinary ho-hum job. I like doing menial tasks at work (like envelope-stuffing) because I can think about things that interest me at the same time and I don’t mind repetitive jobs either because I like routine. I’m glad you’ve had a career that you’ve enjoyed. Thanks for your good wishes. 🙂
      
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      - Martha Kennedy says:
        
        February 16, 2014 at 4:52 am
        
        You’re very welcome. It will come together. Just hang in there and have faith. 🙂
        
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imarunner2012 says:

February 16, 2014 at 2:26 am

I guess you saw from my post that I’m into running. Since people I work with also read my blog, I couldn’t say what I really want.
I want to start my own running related business and leave corporate America ASAP. I’ve looked into a few ideas but need to keep my day job until my business is up and running. I think my latest idea will work.
I know it’s easy to say and not easy to do – you have to take that first step and do it. Do something. I’m not an author so I don’t know the process of writing a book. You should take what ever the first step is and do it today. If there are ten steps and your ideas fall apart before step 5, go on to the next idea and see if you can get to step 6.
It’s not easy and lots of people will tell you no and that your idea/ book is no good. Maybe they have some good advice that you can use to improve your idea or to come up with a new idea.
Hang in there and don’t give up.
Andy

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- Lynne's Art and Soul says:
  
  February 16, 2014 at 3:14 am
  
  I didn’t need to read your post to know that you’re into running Andy, your name ‘imarunner2012’ kind of gives it away lol. What you wrote about the importance of your first job was interesting. I hadn’t heard that before. Mine was dealing with complaints! Good luck with your running related business, I hope it works out for you. I should just get on with the first step. I know I can do it if I put my mind to it. Thanks for the support. 🙂
  
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  - imarunner2012 says:
    
    February 16, 2014 at 8:00 pm
    
    Thank you. I think we all need all of the support we can get when we are going after our dreams.
    Sometimes I feel 49 is old, but I keep telling my self, I’ll never be as young again as I am today. Why wait?
    
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    - Lynne's Art and Soul says:
      
      February 16, 2014 at 8:38 pm
      
      Why wait indeed? Go for it! 🙂
      
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litadoolan says:

February 16, 2014 at 11:06 am

Love the way you responded to the timing of the Daily Prompt. Love this open minded post.

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- Lynne's Art and Soul says:
  
  February 16, 2014 at 8:40 pm
  
  Thank you so much Lita. I wish you every success with your plays. 🙂
  
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  - litadoolan says:
    
    February 16, 2014 at 8:42 pm
    
    Thank you so much for the encouragement. Looking forward to enjoying more visits to your site.
    
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    - Lynne's Art and Soul says:
      
      February 16, 2014 at 9:14 pm
      
      🙂
      
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marieb54 says:

February 16, 2014 at 11:37 am

Wow, that was a rather powerful, deep and thought provoking post! My honest opinion is…GO FOR IT! Yes the mortgage and the bills have to be paid and funnily enough the cats as well as you 2 need food so OK go with the day job for now but focus on the children’s books and blogs, get your name known. You are a very talented lady, seriously you are, I for one really enjoy your blogs, I look forward to them!
If you can try to channel all that frustration that builds up during the day and then go home and put it to paper, well screen really lol, just imagine what you could achieve?!
Please just have a bit of faith in yourself, I have lots but that won’t help you unless you help yourself, I KNOW you can do it, go on, do it!!!

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- Lynne's Art and Soul says:
  
  February 16, 2014 at 9:11 pm
  
  Was it Marie? lol I just wrote what I felt. You know what I am having to deal with at work as you have experienced some of it yourself but I can’t be more specific in my posts because I still work there and you never know who is reading this. If I channelled all of the frustration that builds up during the day I would have a lot of very angry, emotional posts that would not be pleasant to read!
  
  I really appreciate your support and I’m glad you enjoy my blog. You are the only one who reads all of my posts and comments regularly. I started this blog to get more interaction with people and this post has got more comments than any of the others. It seems to have touched people somehow. I’m not sure why. I did do a lot of tapping about issues surrounding my career so maybe that worked. I’m still procrastinating though so perhaps I need to tap on that. 🙂
  
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  - marieb54 says:
    
    February 17, 2014 at 10:20 am
    
    I do understand and can see what you are saying. You need to keep doing what you are doing really as this is producing great blogs! Work is a necessary evil, try to get through it as happily as you can, that is all you can for now. I read your posts as I like them! Keep up the good work I say! Xx
    
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    - Lynne's Art and Soul says:
      
      February 18, 2014 at 12:11 am
      
      Thanks Marie.xx 🙂
      
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